1 year later

A year ago, a person named Matt came home from working in South America and contacted me to go to a movie and possible dinner. Who would have ever known how THAT would turn out.
It was an unofficial "date". We had known each other for almost a year and a half, talking online and on the phone but never in person. So, on Friday September 28, we were able to meet in person.

It has since been a year and things couldn't be better. I am happily still dating him, in love, and about to move in with him. I had no clue what would happen. I've been taking on a ride and back again and wouldn't change it. In the past year, i've learned what love is, how to be my own person in a relationship, and how to truely handle a long term relationship (while that person was in Asia for 4 months, and Australia for 1 month or so).

Today (technically yesterday now) was our 1 year anniversary. We had talked for weeks about what to do, but in the end, we end up doing what we love most- shopping and going to Target. I had originally thought about going to a nice expensive restaurant for dinner, but after looking at what they had, and what we were both looking for, that would not work. Right before Matt and I walked into Brio, we decided to change it to Bettys- the place that we went on our first date. We waited about 30 minutes and when they sat us, it was the same table where we had our first date :-) It was nice to sit there and think that 1 year ago what we were talking about and thinking about....who would have ever guessed how that year would be. On our original date, we had talked about going to a movie, but never did. Instead, we went on a 4 hour walk on campus. Tonight, we actually did see the movie. We saw Igor (anyone who knows us knows that we don't see anything adult...hehe). What made it more special- we had the movie theatre to ourselves, so we DID get to spend it alone.

I'm so happy to have a person like him- great family, wonderful person, and overall just one of the best people i've met. Here's to another wonderful year with Matt.

Verizon...problem solved!

After much thought, I decided to go to Verizon to see if they can live up to what they said. Before going, I called in and wanted to ensure that I was not going to waste my time. Well, i'm glad I did because I would have been. I found out that the notes were too vague for them to really do anything. After 454 minutes of arguing, I said i'm done dealing with it and want out of my contract. But, the manager said he will see what he can do, and within 3 minutes he said he will do what ever it takes to keep me with Verizon. So, He told me about a couple phones, and said that I can have the DARE, which is the newest phone, just like the iphone and very hard to get. I went into the store (easton) and he helped me (along with a very nice other girl), and I walked out a happy customer again- devoted to that store.

Verizon can suck my left one

OMG! I hate verizon wireless.
I have had a phone with them for almost a year- well, a NEW phone (I've been with them since 2001). I have had constant replacements, and been told different things about what is wrong. Recently, I went into the store and they said I can pick out a new phone- cool beans! I had to come back with my stuff that was with the phone before I got it. A couple days later, I called Customer Service just to make sure it was still possible. they said yes. So, everything was a go. I went into the store, and the rude bitch told me "no- the notes are confusing so we are going by policy. We see where it says what you say, but it says something else, so no". I was furious. I spent an hour in the store waiting, and the arguing about this to NOT get a new phone. What she said she could do is send me a replacement of the current phone I have, but it would have to be through the mail and be signed for. I cant do that since i'm moving. She said oh well. So I decided to call back customer service.
The people at Customer Service were very nice. They told me that the sale person at the store (cunt whore!) was wrong. First- my phone has been discontinued, so I couldn't get a replacement. What they could do is get me a new phone all together. What that means- I get $300 to spend on a phone. I made sure that I can go into a store and he told me not a problem. I decided to rearrange my schedule to go in today (Monday). When I went to the store, they said if customer service offered it, they have to do it- no store will do it. The manager said that it would come out of his pocket and he wasn't willing to take that loss. I'm BOILING at this point. I'm deciding to cancel my service, but before I do, i'm going to call 1 more time. Customer service told me the store should have taken care of what I needed! He attempted to call the store and they didn't answer the phone. He finally got ahold of a store that might be able to help me- he said that the asst manager said that he might be able to do it, but he has to wait until the manager says so. What do I do?
Should I just cancel Verizon and go somewhere else? (cost $120 for cancelling).
Should I go to the store only to be told no, or take the chance that someone MIGHT be willing to help!
AHHHH- no matter what, VERIZON SUCKS

Summer of...

It's been almost 4 months since blogging. Wow. I guess I won't do that again.

Lets see- long story short:
Matt came home. We partied, hung out, went on a trip. Ashley graduated College from OSU, multiple birthdays, and then, the farewell to Matt on June 9 for Australia (his final tour with Disney On Ice presents: Mickey and Minnie's Amazing Journey (formerly Magical Journey). Then begins the summer.

Not much happened in June at all- I pretty much stayed home and worked. The beginning of July- mid July was the same as June. I still haven't gotten used to getting up at the butt ass crack of dawn- will I? Who knows.

Now on with the middle to current.
First some background: In May 2008, Ed and Michael of Center Stage Players (CSP) asked me to audition for MAME for the character of Vera Charles, the showbiz, diva drunk. I said that I would. After more consideration, and 2 days BEFORE auditions, I politely said no thank you and stated my reasons: the show would go up during my week of vacation, and put a crimp in any week plans. I wouldn't be able to move at all- tech/dress week would fall during this time. I didn't know if I wanted to play a character in a show in drag...AGAIN. I also didn't know if I wanted to work on this show- i've never liked the show, but the character of Vera is fantastic. On with the next part...
1. WCT's Cinderella. This is something i've known I was going to do for quite some time- Matt's brother Joe is directing this show and knew early on (prior to Matt's leaving) that he was going to need crew. So, knowing that I was bored in the summer, I said yes. The day of load in (about a week or so ago), I had an update on facebook and myspace saying that I was getting ready for WCT's Cinderella. I got an email from one of the directors saying that I was disloyal and they were disappointed and hurt to find out that I have given my time to another theatre troupe. The audition was going to be a way for me to get myself back into this group that I had removed myself from after a rough falling out during the last summer of cancelled shows, and Diva trips. I have attempted to remain friends with several people- there is no ill-will from me any longer. The bitterness has turned to bland. As for my intentions to come back- I don't know. After this bout, it's going to take a lot of talk if I do: several factors came into play when attempting to cut ties- it was very hard- it meant walking away from everything that I had known for the past 4 years, but I did. And now, i'm helping out my boyfriend's brother with his show, i'm getting flack for it saying that i'm disloyal...shall we honestly go into what is loyal and what isn't? I can write a novel on the working of dysfunctional and loyalty from what i've learned.
Back to WCT. I have been given a new chance to see what theatre is like- the first time i've done theatre outside of a gay bar, and high school. This was a time that no one knew my skills, or what I can do, and I was put to work. The first day I was alittle nervous- everyone had a bond that I didn't have- I was the newbie. But, a few people took me on: Shauna, Lisa, Becky, and David. They made me feel extremely comfortable and welcome. Through the next week, they, among others, made me feel welcome and part of a family again. I was able to give my insight, and test my training, and it's paid off- I think that some people might actually think I know what i'm doing- have I had any formal, certified training? No, but i've had 5 years of working with another theatre group outside, in a high school, and a bar to understand what to do.
It's been fun. I was extremely nervous at first working with Joe- it's the first time that i've actually been with him without Matt. After the first few minutes, it got easier. Now, it's normal. Joe is very much like Matt, but still his own person: I didn't know what to think about him, even after I had known him, and I didn't know if he liked me: he does (haha- I sound like we're dating). Of course, things will go back to normal within 48 hours of the show closing: Matt comes home Monday night after the show closes, and i'll be over there Tuesday during the day.
Let me talk about a couple people: Lisa and Shauna...I haven't met many new people in a while- staying at home, not doing anything and working with a lot of older people. Shauna was the first person I met...Lisa sometime during that day or the next. We would all talk during rehearsal, and i'd give my opinion. A couple nights during the week, i'd be invited for drinks. I feel really special that I witness Shauna's 3 proud moments of the week: Hopscotch Headbang, Hand screwing, and the Waitress Match....Lisa and I have just been able to talk and stuff, and she made me feel welcome- if i'm living in town, I may get involved with them: there is a lot of potential to the group, and room for me. Will I get as involved as CSP? Who knows...right now, before I would ever say anything, I want to sit down and talk to people, just to get ideas, and a general feel. Also, I want to see if it isn't a problem to do other groups as well (as it seems to be with CSP).

2. Moving. There have been alot of ups and downs with moving. However, it's been settled for now. I'm going to be moving in with Ashley's parents right off Polaris Parkway and Africa Road, just down from Matts and work. YAY! The thing that many people don't know...i'm doing this while waiting for Matt- he is going to be looking for a new job either in the city or outside of the city. Where he goes, i'll be. If it's in the city, we will start looking for a place ASAP. hehe- it's funny- Joe is telling me about Matt's plans on moving out, and telling me what Matt will have to do and blah blah blah...he doesn't know about our plans- I just want to tell him- we've talked about it alot and have decided on what is going on...
The big move happens on Monday July 28 after work. FINALLY- after a year of HELL in this place, Ashley and I will be gone! (I honestly believe that there is something haunting out house, and there is a negative vibe on this house- we all have changed living here, and when we aren't here, it's different...very strange and scary...that, plus the footsteps in the hall and on the stairs, the doors the close or open, and the cabinets that always open randomly).

The summer will be ending soon. In 2 weeks, Matt and I go on vacation to Milwaukee and Wisconsin, then looking for a place, hopefully in time for our 1 year anniversary. Then, life will really change. more about that later.

Just a note- Matt. Being away from him this time hasn't been bad at all- in fact, it's gone by quickly. Have I missed him? Absolutely! But when he comes home this time, it will be different- he won't be leaving, and we will be planning our life. wow. All I can say is love is scary but wonderful!

Its been a while

It has been a long time since i've blogged- it seems like its been around 5 months, almost to the day. Alot has happened in those 5 months:
November- Drama with Jay started evolving into something more drastic. In the mean time around Thanksgiving, I went to Disneyworld for 4 days with Ashley's family for the Mickey's Very Merry Christmas Party. I must say, it was one of the best things i've done at Disney in years: If you want the spirit of the holiday season, there are 2 places to go: New York City and Rockerfeller Center/Macys at Harold Square, and the Magic Kingdom- it was such a wonderful way to start the holiday off right. In the month, Matt and I (yes, the boy from the other blogs) got closer. By this time, we are dating. He is my boyfriend. I'm really starting to like him, or so I thought...
December- it was the final blow with Jay. It was decided that he was moving out, and we would get another roommate (which I must say, its either a bipolar person who pays the bills, or a nice person who stiffs us- no happy medium). CHRISTMAS! The holiday season started with a fantastic Christmas Vacation party. A couple weeks later, I had my grandmother over for her 80th birthday- very fun dinner party for 11. Christmas came and went, and I got a ton of stuff I didn't need. One of the best gifts was from Matt (backstory- he is supposed to go on tour, January 11-May 7 in Asia). It was a picture frame that I can keep at work so I can see him every day that he is gone. I almost cried, but I didn't.
January- New Years in Chicago with Warren and Eric- such a wonderful time I had with them. It was wonderful to see them again. Of course, Matt came along. I got him tickets to Wicked for his birthday in November. Then of course, January 9 came- the day I said goodbye (yes, still together). It was one of the hardest things i've had to do. But, the goodbye did have something different about it. Love. Before he left and I wasn't to talk to him for a while, I told him I loved him. Wonderfully enough, he did too. Such an amazing person. After he left, I got a new job at Chase, and have been doing great ever since.
February- Trip to New York City! Saw Grease, Young Frankenstein and Xanadu (on stage, of course!). I got to meet several of the stars. The trip was good, but not the best i've had. Next trip to the big apple- September 20-23. Nothing else happened.
March- still a quiet month, with the exception of the Blizzard: For the first time in my lifetime, and the first time in the history of the city, we got POUNDED with 21 inches of snow. Blizzard for 2 days=city closed down. Ashley and stayed holed up for days inside. Within 3 days, the base layer of snow had melted. Still today, several snow piles remain. Matt and I are still together, madly in love, and going strong. I think the distance has made us stronger. As of now, there is 6 weeks left before he arrives home!
Not much as been said about Matt, except that he is my boyfriend now, and the last time he was just an interest. He is such an amazing person. When you think of someone that you want around, he is it. I don't know how everything happened, but it seemed to happen over night. Its a feeling that I can't explain- I never thought that anyone could or would love me back. I was afraid he would turn into just another friend. I'm happy he isn't. After 8 years on the road with Disney on Ice, he has decided to call it quits and move home for good. Coincidentally, it is also around the time my lease is up. We have talked about moving in together. Its a big step. I think about it often, and it scares me- not a sad scared, but a happy one. This time last year, I was happy being single- I had so many plans. Then, September 28: Matt. Everything changed. Even though we haven't seen each other in 12 weeks, he still makes me smile everytime I talk to him or think of him. I can't wait to see him again. hehehe. wow- a boy does this to me.

There will be more later: April is fast approaching!

A Change in Life...

You never know what life is going to bring you. I have always thought that life is predictable. For one person, she can and is usually right. As for me, I can't.

Over the summer, I started having problems with Center Stage Players. This drama continued through the end of the summer and into fall. Because of that, my job, and personal problems, I decided to leave Center Stage Players. It was one of the hardest decisions that I had made. There were days that all I did was wonder what I did, why it happened, and if I was going to go back. There was 1 person who I fought with more than anything- Alan. He was one of my best friends, and this hurt to no extent.

Even though it hurt, I felt it was right. It was time to let go. I'm sometimes not able to do that, but this time I felt it necessary to. I now had unknown amounts of free time! I was uber excited. A little Backstory... a little over a year ago (well, probably around July 2006), I started talking to someone online. We had made plans for the next year to meet, but never did. I was always busy with CSP. The one thing I was looking for was a friendship. Over the summer, I started talking to him again. He told me he was coming home September 26. I had new found freedom. So, I told him to contact me and we will make plans. This time, they actually came through and I met him in person. His name was Matt. Now back to the story...On the day CSP's the ExperiencE was to open, I had found a freedom that I didn't know what to do. So, I met Matt at Lennox and decided to go to Dinner and a Movie. Nothing was playing, so we decided to eat. One thing I found that we did not lack was communication. We always had a topic of conversation. Even now, we still do. When we left each other, I was thinking I have a new friend. I wasn't looking for anything. I finally got my life back, and I was actually experiencing happiness! Over the next few weeks, we hung out 3-5 times per week. Everyone thought we were dating. We told them we are only friends. No one believed. Last weekend, we had an unusual weekend, and i'm thankful for that...
Friday, I picked him up at his house to go to a movie, and then meet Ashley our for a drink after The Rocky Horror Show. Our old roommate was bartending for the first time, so we went to Axis. 3.5 hours, many shots later, we left. Drunk and crazy, Matt spent the night. No sex or anything happened. Friends don't have sex. The next morning, we parted company for 4 hours- I had a baby shower to go to. That evening, we went to Circleville for the Pumpkin Show and then to Mansfield to the Haunted Prison. It was late, and we stayed at his house (same thing from the night before- look above). Sunday, we went Christmas shopping and then to Showtunes with Ashley. Something happened that night that made me question anything about friends. We talked, and he agreed.
Over the course of the next few days, we talked about it more, and got more attached. I don't know when, but somewhere during the process of being friends, I had started to like him, and he me. Now, we are dating. Some said we moved too fast- others think too slow. Most gay people have already had sex, made out, fought, and sometimes broke up in the time it took us to realize what has happening.

Friday night- BoMA. I hadn't seen or talked to Alan in weeks. I knew he was there because of his vehicle. I didn't want to see him. However, after coaxing, I decided to go in anyways. Within 5 minutes, I found him. Instead of hiding, I decided to confront him. It wasn't anything like I thought. We were civil, and what ever happened seemed to melt away. Through the night, the storm clouds that surrounded the negative vibes around the show and troupe for me seemed to clear out and expose a starry night. The one thing that was troubling me was over. I had decided to confront it and now i'm much happier. I feel that I don't have to hide anymore. I have my friends back, a new friend, and my life is starting to fall into place. Who knows what life is going to bring. I might be brought back down to reality. But for now, its peaceful.

What life may bring

Recently, I have been spending a lot of time thinking about this very thing. So many of my friends are starting to, or have already been doing things they want to do for their lives, or are just having fun. In turn, I have decided to start doing that. For quite a long time, I have thought about other people, and how I can help them. As of the end of September, it was time for a change.

For the past few weeks, I have been doing what I want, with who I want, and have had an amazing time. I have finally caught up with old friends that I haven't seen in over a year, met a new one I have been meaning to see since July 2006.

So, lets talk. There is someone I met online over a year ago. For the past year, in between tours (shows) in other countries, we have been meaning to meet in person. However, because of 1 thing or another, I have been busy- Secret Garden, Sleepy Hollow, the ExperiencE. Because of my new found free time, we finally got to meet up a couple weeks ago. He is actually a great person. He is turning into a wonderful friend. Its been a long time since i've had another male that I had this much in common with. I have Ashley and several of my girl other friends, but I now have another to add to the list. Funny thing- most people make fun of me because of the ridiculous christmas shows I like- found out, he knows them too.

Let talk Tittys. She is one of my best friends. I honestly don't know if I could picture my life without her. She has been a huge influence in my life, and I'm happy that she is in it. At times she annoys me, and I annoy her, but we get along. There is a word that can be used to describe her, and it can be found in the movie "Serendipity", one of my favorite movies.

Sometimes, I find myself listening to certain songs (like right now) and think of my mother heavily and I start crying a little. Its been a while since I have. Its been almost 4.5 years since her death, and at times its still hard to handle. Actually, its been just over 4.5 years. I don't know how next year on the 5th year will be- i'm probably going to take a couple days off around that time. I know some people think "get over it", but its hard to. I was just starting to come into my own and define my life as an adult when she was taken. There isn't a day I don't think about her. I can't imagine Dad or Matthew what they may go through at times.
The lesson here- love and live life to the fullest, and don't be petty. Its too short. If you don't like how your life is going, change it. Only you can. Dance as if no one was watching. I know i've started to, and i'm starting to love life again!