What life may bring

Recently, I have been spending a lot of time thinking about this very thing. So many of my friends are starting to, or have already been doing things they want to do for their lives, or are just having fun. In turn, I have decided to start doing that. For quite a long time, I have thought about other people, and how I can help them. As of the end of September, it was time for a change.

For the past few weeks, I have been doing what I want, with who I want, and have had an amazing time. I have finally caught up with old friends that I haven't seen in over a year, met a new one I have been meaning to see since July 2006.

So, lets talk. There is someone I met online over a year ago. For the past year, in between tours (shows) in other countries, we have been meaning to meet in person. However, because of 1 thing or another, I have been busy- Secret Garden, Sleepy Hollow, the ExperiencE. Because of my new found free time, we finally got to meet up a couple weeks ago. He is actually a great person. He is turning into a wonderful friend. Its been a long time since i've had another male that I had this much in common with. I have Ashley and several of my girl other friends, but I now have another to add to the list. Funny thing- most people make fun of me because of the ridiculous christmas shows I like- found out, he knows them too.

Let talk Tittys. She is one of my best friends. I honestly don't know if I could picture my life without her. She has been a huge influence in my life, and I'm happy that she is in it. At times she annoys me, and I annoy her, but we get along. There is a word that can be used to describe her, and it can be found in the movie "Serendipity", one of my favorite movies.

Sometimes, I find myself listening to certain songs (like right now) and think of my mother heavily and I start crying a little. Its been a while since I have. Its been almost 4.5 years since her death, and at times its still hard to handle. Actually, its been just over 4.5 years. I don't know how next year on the 5th year will be- i'm probably going to take a couple days off around that time. I know some people think "get over it", but its hard to. I was just starting to come into my own and define my life as an adult when she was taken. There isn't a day I don't think about her. I can't imagine Dad or Matthew what they may go through at times.
The lesson here- love and live life to the fullest, and don't be petty. Its too short. If you don't like how your life is going, change it. Only you can. Dance as if no one was watching. I know i've started to, and i'm starting to love life again!